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Subject:only man for me
Time:12:29 am
Current Mood:disappointedwant skulz to b here
Slulz is the only man for me. since Skulz isn't here i found a gril to cuddle with. Skulz i miss you and have been busy here. i haven't posted much but read what you post. i am sad that others get you even if they are afraid of what others think. I got email from her telling me you came buy her place but left in a rush. i guess it sucks she wants sex but still hangs with them and doesn't want any to know she hangs with you. told you to move here with me. fuck the goth girls, richmond girls are all crazy. my new toy is fun but she si no Skulz.
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Subject:day off
Time:10:28 pm
Current Mood:tiredtired
You would think I had the day off like most people did today. Well you are fucking wrong. Had to work today, even got a little of that overtime action that Bush screwed up for most of us. Vote I will, vote that Bush out of office. I see you just posted, crazy flying bat? I will just have to wait for the photos to go up on your crazy web page. My car is great, the car alarm is the best and I hope this LoJack never gets used or needed. He also put a new stereo in the car, said I needed one with a removable faceplate. I drove it for the second time since I got here and I will avoid driving here if I can help it.
I guess you are in bed. I have to get to bed so I will read your journal and go to bed.

Night
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Subject:I did that to prove a point
Time:10:51 pm
Thank you.

Hi Ben, sorry about that, I just had to show you and it worked. Told you so. LOL Ok, I was dead since I started the job. Work, I have a lot I must do and I have about 100 people under me. My boss is a nut and I get an assistant I have yet to hire. I have a nice empty office, the company gave me a book I can get what I need from. The only thing in my office is a G5, nice. I have to get to know everyone and find my way around. I called Ryan like you told me. He took care of the music and drugs all right. You sure know the right people. He also took my car to get an alarm put in it and LoJack, how much is that going to cost me?
My dad came up, he noticed your photo on my night stand and asked how you are. My mom will come next week from LA so that will be fun. I met some others who know you from Philly. I had your t-shirt on while shopping and they asked where I got a skulz shirt. It is a small world. She asked if you were here, I told them you were still in Richmond and that was a surprise to them. They said they last heard you were in Indiana so I guess they haven’t seen you in years. I know you lived in Indiana, but it must have been long ago since you have been in Richmond for over 10 years? The guy had a skulz tattoo on his arm and it had some numbers under it. I can’t remember his name, the girl didn’t say much.
I didn’t look at your journal tonight. I just read the email. Thanks for the photo. You need to get me one of you on your little bike you rode me on that day. I don’t think I will be driving my car even after I get it back. This place is so big.
Well I am off to the shower then I want to read my book some. Luv J
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Subject:home
Time:08:52 pm
Current Mood:guiltymiss you
skulz work was crazy and there is so much i just have no idea what to say so i will just go to bed. miss you. have that t shirt on and nothing else. wish i was there for 1/2 naked shower cleaning. remember cleaning my shower? i do.
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Subject:night night
Time:12:13 am
Current Mood:exhaustedexhausted
sleep time. i also have work in the am. have to look at what you did today. i moved things around the place still trying to get the feel of it. a move is a big thing that gets in the way of how you do things. i had my way, it was how i liked it, everything had its place. i went for a walk. i do not see me doing that at night. thought the bums in richmond were bad, here they follow you, even trying to get into the building to get money from you. i had one tell me i must hate blacks since i would not help him out. he asked for fifty, he had sneakers on that cost a bundle and he was asking me for fifty? i hate his type, he was never a slave, hell he has never worked hard in his life i will bet. but he gave me that line that "white people owe the blacks" give me a break. where do people like this get off? so i didn't give him my money that i work for so i must hate blacks, gee, well i do think the likes of him should be shot. sleeping here is hard. the apartment across the hall is a drug drop. they play their music so loud, it isn't music, but a sad thud, thud that makes everything vibrate, it isn't nice or anything. I got a cold look as i went past since they were in the middle of a sale. I have now walked through 2 crack deals.

off to bed. i will email you another photo soon
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Subject:in my head
Time:10:25 am
Current Mood:contemplativecontemplative
How is my silly boy? Last day before I start the game of life. I am glad to be finished with Richmond. I know what you were asking, I didn’t tell you, it was not a lie, it just never came up. I never dated in high school. The boys asked me out all the time. Boys I did not like. I did not wish to be gay so I was single. Yell, do it. After Skulz I see gay I am not for sure. I did date her. I found it did not fit well. Skulz was like my stuffed bear I have had since ever. It just fit like night and day. You told me we would not work but things so different often work out best. I have seen the girls you have dated. You date two types; 1st the girls that sort of worked out were like me and nothing like what you see you dating. 2nd are the girls you like to think you like to date. Those girls are what you like to be with but they are far to unhappy in their own life for someone like you. Sorry to break it to you silly boy, a rough and tumble girl you will not spend your days with. A nice, clean-cut girl who is smart and together will find and keep you one day soon. I just wish you had let that girl be I. I do not dress in black. I had no clue about Goth or Industrial music until I met you. I was a good girl until my last days of college. I was not one who found a need to grab every boy or girl to fill something that was missing in myself. My dad does not think badly of you. Fact he thinks I need to pay you for the assistance you gave with both my car and packing. He got there just as you got the last item on the truck. People have used you because they envy you, what you are and everything about you. I know how you grew up yet you do not play the victim. Yea you are screwed up but who isn’t. It is the sane one must watch out for. Ok you have dated two that sucked out of the number you have dated that is not worth even bothering with. I know you have dated hundreds of girls. Think about that. I know why young girls like you even if I am not young I am younger than you. You are you and it shows in how you care and do for others without asking for anything in return. You give even after you have been treated as you have. You trust so soon after trust was broken. It is what makes you the fun, warm and caring person inside you attempt to hide under all that black and spikes. I had to sit by and watch you date the anorexic one, and then I sat as you were with the others before you got with the puppet girl. I know the redhead was one you should be with if she would just get over it and be with you. If I lost you to her I would not mind since I like her and think she is a good person. I am saddened that you feel we will not work. I will move on and find another like you will in time. I like that you keep going after things.
That spot on Belle Island is in my head. Sex in the woods was fun silly boy. I have had sex with one girl and one boy. I am glad I had sex with that silly boy. You do look younger with the orange hair. You are so hot it makes me wet. I have the photos and memories. I want more but I will not hit on that again since you made the choice I must now respect that since I respect you.
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Subject:skulz
Time:12:38 am
Thanks for starting a live journal. I had one here and a dead journal or two as well. I started a new one just for you. You know why. I know why you thought this was a bad idea. I will not touch that since I know all about it all and I know the truth. I get why you said what you did now that I had time to think. You are right. Glad to hear you are happy now with all you have going. Thank you for fixing both my car and my computer. Yes girls have taken advantage of you there in Richmond. I told you so is not what I should say, but the fat psycho was mixed up with that psycho slut. I am sorry, next subject.
I got parking worked out for my car. I have my stuff in the new place. I just have nothing to do. Thanks for the CD of music. I like everything you had on it. I will return the favor soon. I start work soon so I will have that to fill my time. God this is so dry and stiff. I know you were the first guy I had sex with. It is odd how writing in this journal differs from interacting with you in person. You are always knocking how you spell. I sure screw up just as much. In your last email most of the spelling errors were just letters turned around. Dyslexia. I think that is what you have. I see it in how you have trouble with numbers. You are not bad at the math as you state. I think you just have trouble with the numbers. I know how smart you are after you fixed my POS car. The Honda dealer had the car more than I did and they could not fix it.
So this is my first post in this new journal. You don’t want to see my old journal, it is an ex thing I know you understand. I dated one guy and her was a crazy ass hole. I got a kick out of your post about your date from hell tonight. I waited to get a journal to see if you would start one. I thought you would just drop the idea as soon as I was gone. I get why now that I had time to weigh it, examine it, and try to see it like it was my problem. Unlike anyone I have ever met before, you always seem to get back up fast and easy.
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